Sunday, February 17, 2013
Itching to write again
It's been so long since I last wrote on this blog. My last blog was...*checks the date on the last blog post*...13 June 2007.
A little over five and a half years ago.
Where was I five and a half years ago? Probably bracing myself for what was to be my sophomore year in law school, after barely surviving freshman year.
And now...I'm already a lawyer. In fact, I've been a lawyer for nearly two years already, been to two (three) law firms and am fast heading towards career burn out.
Not quite the inspirational message for law students.
But aside from my lackluster career life, I'm also entering a new phase of my life. I will be getting married. Oh, not until almost a year from now. But we're headed there.
How does it feel? Scary. Exciting. It's that kind of something-that-will-happen-in-the-near-and-definite-future that sends you into a seesaw of emotions. One minute you're feeling somewhat giddy, thinking of the possibilities, the what-ifs, planning. The next, you're terrified, thinking of the possibilities, the what-ifs...and curling in a corner with your arms over your head.
Ok, so I'm exaggerating a little.
But yes, there's that little bit of terror and doubt because you don't know what exactly will happen. So you can't exactly plan it out to the last detail. So you focus on the things that you can plan, that you can anticipate...which is the actual wedding.
It's an entirely new thing for me. Obviously, planning out a wedding, since I've never gotten married before, and I'm certainly not a wedding coordinator. But I mean, planning an event as big as this in general. I find myself turning to others who HAVE gotten married or who are getting married and who are much better at it than me. It's a bit exciting, a bit fascinating, trying to mold a once-in-a-lifetime event into the way you see it, the way you want it. Sort of like clay. While trying not to turn into a bridezilla and to keep it all within budget.
Because of course, we'd like to still be able to eat three times a day after the wedding.
So far, we've booked the venue, the church and the videographer. Tomorrow, we meet with the photographer.
And yeah, five years and a half have turned me into a bumbling, rambling fool.
A little over five and a half years ago.
Where was I five and a half years ago? Probably bracing myself for what was to be my sophomore year in law school, after barely surviving freshman year.
And now...I'm already a lawyer. In fact, I've been a lawyer for nearly two years already, been to two (three) law firms and am fast heading towards career burn out.
Not quite the inspirational message for law students.
But aside from my lackluster career life, I'm also entering a new phase of my life. I will be getting married. Oh, not until almost a year from now. But we're headed there.
How does it feel? Scary. Exciting. It's that kind of something-that-will-happen-in-the-near-and-definite-future that sends you into a seesaw of emotions. One minute you're feeling somewhat giddy, thinking of the possibilities, the what-ifs, planning. The next, you're terrified, thinking of the possibilities, the what-ifs...and curling in a corner with your arms over your head.
Ok, so I'm exaggerating a little.
But yes, there's that little bit of terror and doubt because you don't know what exactly will happen. So you can't exactly plan it out to the last detail. So you focus on the things that you can plan, that you can anticipate...which is the actual wedding.
It's an entirely new thing for me. Obviously, planning out a wedding, since I've never gotten married before, and I'm certainly not a wedding coordinator. But I mean, planning an event as big as this in general. I find myself turning to others who HAVE gotten married or who are getting married and who are much better at it than me. It's a bit exciting, a bit fascinating, trying to mold a once-in-a-lifetime event into the way you see it, the way you want it. Sort of like clay. While trying not to turn into a bridezilla and to keep it all within budget.
Because of course, we'd like to still be able to eat three times a day after the wedding.
So far, we've booked the venue, the church and the videographer. Tomorrow, we meet with the photographer.
And yeah, five years and a half have turned me into a bumbling, rambling fool.
# Lyn found a missing piece @ 12:31 AM 
